New resolution

Although it's before new year's my new resolution is to not let my eating problem be a bigger problem than it is. For too long I've let it dominate my life and hold me back from socialising properly, with my new approach to trying things I'm going to join in things as much as possible.

Some explanations go better than expected

I managed to explain my eating situation without difficulty a few weeks ago, and things went well. I tried a few new foods for the first time, butternut squash risotto and a veggie burger. I managed a good amount of bites and only had minor gagging sensations. I also tried pasta and tomato sauce again but still battle with the volume, only cleared about a third of the plate. I've come to the realisation that I need to push through times when I don't feel/want to try and have a go anyway. It's not been easy but it's nice to see some progress.

Explaining SED to someone you care about

I had a first date the other night and managed to go through the whole evening without eating without a problem for me. But I do know the girl wanted to order (seemed to indicate at first she was hungry but then didn't mention it again) but I suspect didn't because I didn't. I feel bad as I didn't stop her but if I had ordered she would have, I am meeting again soon so know if I am to go through a whole evening I need to order something too. I know I can eat some pasta so am going to try find a place and go there, but the last (and first) time I tried pasta publicly was with a friend so it was a completely different vibe.

Regardless of what happens I know I need to raise the issue of my eating as it's only fair but I don't want it to overshadow things, and my eating is constantly improving (at least trying new things wise). So I've been trying to think for the last day or so how to raise it in a reasonable way that highlights things without being overly dramatic.

Sandwich trying

I was not able to get to a pub to try a proper meal over the weekend. I instead carried on trying the sandwich a few more times. I'm slowly getting used to it now, having a lot less orange juice and the pickle/onion taste is slowly but surely growing on me. I just have to keep slowing my tries down as chewing slowly is not easy when you just want to get it down and over with. I'm still meeting the person but hopefully just for drinks, not sure. Regardless I'm intent on finishing a whole sandwich by the end of the month, tonight I ate half of it.