Subway

I've thought about trying something at Subway for a long time. I find it daunting to go into food places/restaurants as I feel stupid for not knowing much (or anything at all). I've bought McDonalds before from a drive through but have only ended up actually trying their fries/chips.


A few weeks ago I ventured in, after many times just looking in and turning back. I went to the counter and looked at the menu (for what felt like an enternity), I focused on the veggie delite as I'm still weary of trying meat based food (not because I feel I'm a vegetarian as I occasioanlly eat a beef oxo cube). I was surprised at the questions/options, I stumbled my way though feeling embarassed but go out feeling not too bad at the end. I made the mistake of taking the toasted option as by the time I got home it was cold and hard, so I didn't really try it, but did try a few of the ingridents, not sure what they are but they weren't too bad (purple small round things). I felt good at going in, ordering and getting out of there, that itself felt like an accomplishment.

Retaining focus

It's easy to forget what I'm trying to achieve sometimes. I try to focus on heathly foods as my target for trying new foods, but I have to remind myself that almost anything is healthier than chocolate and crips. I want to eat a wider range of foods not only for health, but mainly to be more socialable.

Trying to try

For me trying foods (new or old) ranges from the worst possible experience through to the greatest. The euphoric feeling when it goes well is hard to explain, but even with that great feeling trying stuff is hard. Although I have now go to the point of being able to eat a simple mixed salad, if I'm not careful I can still gag and throw up. Even pringles which I have been eating for 10 years can get stuck in my throat, and although it happens now and again, it's still the single most scary thing that has happened to me, feeling like I'm going to die. I've have found that it happens when I've not drank enough water and eat too quickly. The good thing is now I can eat salad, I just have to get used to it's taste which is very different from the other things I eat.

A real documentary

I think a proper documentary about teenagers/adults with SED/Food Neophobia should be made. The programs that have been done so far have focused on children or as reality entertainment, I think a program showing the struggles and how people survive and battle their SED would be good for people who suffer in silence. It would also help to raise the attention of the problem and have people gain more understanding. Does anyone agree, not asking for people to appear on it as I'm not making one, but maybe you could share you story either in a comment here or email me (bauc at yahoo.com).